I did write about those experience... but never posted... i felt embrassed and pityfull of my own situation...
since i have crossed that phase and doing well now, they are such a wonderful experience...
so here i am sharing that part of my life...
the two blogs below would give a glimpse of life then...
there it goes...
"Shrinking pockets and expanding clothes"
In recent past, things in my life are not as fine as it used to be…..
Its hard to believe that my life has turned so much that it leaves me with no option but to be silly…
Well explaining makes it difficult… Quoting an example would make it easier…
Today my cousins had come from Chennai along with their friends here… they asked me to show them some places…
Oh God why do people visit me when I hardly have any money left for the week…
My Ego doesn’t allow me to keep my wallet shut…
I did spend some money for those spend thrifts… I had almost spent my four days living expense… that’s when they wanted to see Ghost house… I don know why always people wanted me to lead… God I had to pay for the tickets, but my reserve was not enough… my stupid cousin was scared of the ghost and ran away from the ticket counter… I had to go to him and talk about my situation… It needs a lot of courage for someone to be in my shoes… whatever it was quite embarrassing and shameful… Well I wasn’t left with any other choice…
All the while when I was strolling with them I felt damn thirsty… but did not want to buy water (what if these guys ask for some soft drinks?)… these days even water appears to be very costly for me.. You wouldn’t believe me, after 3 hours of strolling I left them and came back to my room just to have water…
It was late night and I was quite hungry… but (you guessed it) can’t afford for one… That’s when my friend called me and asked me to join him for dinner at his home… That was the happiest moment of the day… U won’t believe, I drove 30 kilometers at 9 in the night just to have food…
Quite silly isn’t it…
"HUNGRY SOUL!!!"
Some people say ‘hungry soul knows no ego, no prestige, nothing’….
I think its true…
Its been months that I have had 3 meals a day…
There where times when I used to skip my food at hostel to go restaurants and have food…
Earlier I used to crib about the quality of food… It’s not an option these days…
I wish someone now and then just appear and give me a treat…
At times I crave for something to eat, that’s when a Chai and a Cigarette does wonders…
Most of the days I go to bed with an empty stomach…
Sometime when I can’t control, I buy a loaf of bread, dip it in water and eat…
Weekends are a damn treat for my stomach, nothing is better than home made food…
In a way I have become like a camel… I eat as much as I can at weekends and store the energy for rest of the week…
Well you can’t say all about this to people, it quite embarrassing…
I wonder why is this happening to me??? Do I really deserve this…
I think that food is the most important thing in life, then comes luxury, love, image etc,.
Only a starving person can understand how much it hurts…
All my life I haven’t starved for food… this is the first time… and It’s really painful…
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