In Search Of Peace

On a troubled path, no peace of mind…. Today I wonder in search of peace…

Seeking Silence & Peace…
Leaving my home…
With hopes.. I am going to a place to get what I seek for…



On The Way…

Painful thoughts in mind….
Hiding them from family…
I Drive on the Highway…

Used to enjoy driving on countryside before…
But today I don’t…
Loss of interest seems to exist in everything I do…

They call it a bandh today…
Streets are deserted…
So is my heart…

Stoped the car at a motel.. to have lunch…
I miss her so much… feel like listening to her voice… called her… did not receive…
Had lunch half hearted…
Back on wheels…



At the temple…

Reached the place at 5pm…

Called her back…
My desire to listen to her voice, desperate…
Finally got to speak to her…
She seems disinterested…
Think I am disturbing her vacation…

Took shower… went to temple…
Watching elephants makes my mind clam…

To Goddess, offered my simple prayer..




My prayer…

Devi..
Thank you for your darshan…
I have one wish… I put that forth as a humble request to you…

Devi..
I want to come back again…
With my love as my wife…
Bless me with my wish… Grant me my request…
Please…



On The Way To My Native…

Lush green trees… Fresh air… Cool breeze… Sky top mountains…
Wet roads… White blanket of mist…

What a Feast to eyes…
A Beautiful place…
People call it God’s own Country…



A Conversation of How People are…

Listened to a lot of stories, that happen these days…

Relation with people are not strong these days…
Everyone with self motives…
Today I don find any shoulders to rest..
Nor any arms to comfort.. when I am in real need…

People close to heart cheat on me..
Like leaches feeding on my flesh and sucking blood..
I cant hate them…
Those beautiful days with them keeps my love for them alive…
But my trust and respect for them is lost forever…

I was happier when I had nothing much…
Wealth brakes beautiful bonds…
Cant do anything about it… I am Helpless…



Walking Along My Countryside…

Smell of Coffee beans, Cardamom seeds, Vanilla sticks, Wet soil, Tea leaves…
Enriching my senses…

Fragnance of my Sweet heart along with these will make this place a heaven…
Enriching my life…

Darkness covers the place…
Watching the moon rise out of mountains…
A silent good bye to the place…
I left the place…




On The Streets of Hill station…

Set out to shop for my darling…

The place lit with colorful lights…
A cold night with plenty of foreigners…
A lively place…

Bought her something that I promised her long back…

Listening to music played on street…
Tasting home made chocolate…
Enjoyed a long stroll…

Slipped back in room at 11:30pm when everybody were as sleep…
Called up room service… ordered for a coffee…

Standing on the balcony sipped the coffee…
The place looks beautiful... coffee tastes great…
I wished she was with me at this moment…




Back to Home…

Done with my trip…
Everyone is tired…
They all are asleep…

Hands on steering…
Mint in mouth…
With Music on…
Back on my job… Driving them back safely to home…

Visit to places…
Gives me trust to regain my lost hopes…

First time I feel that they enjoyed more than me…

What about Peace???

Peace…
:)
Not so soon… Long way to go…

An Evening at My School

After a long time, I am back at my place….



Wanted to see my school....

I drove my bike, towards my School…

School that I spent 14 years of my life…

I have seen all major changes that my School experienced during those days….




The evening is brisk and silent, buildings reflecting dim light…

I hear the trees singing of mild breeze…

The wheels of my bike slowed down and stopped in front of the school gate….

Eyes were fixed looking at the campus….

Lips did not speak…

Lungs took a deep breath…




I can still see and hear my friends playing… school bells ringing… all of us running to class room… listening to lectures…

I still feel my school life…

Today my eyes seek all those past events…

But they are no more…

For I have moved far away from that…

It has been 6 years since my departure from the school

Today on arrival..

I see my School, changed so much

So is my own life…




My school still looks so beautiful…



Image of my school blurs.... not for the darkness but for the mist…

Mist collected in my Eyes…

Lip smiles…

The memories of my school life are very sweet but cannot be expressed…

My heart feels heavy with a sense of loss…

Loss of a beautiful and innocence life….

Today I stand outside the gate looking at my school inside….

Today all that we share in common is only our past life…

And I miss all that….



Not waving a Good Bye…

I turned and walk back in silence with some thoughts in mind….

Thought says…

“Nothing is eternal… For everything is subjected to change…”

:)

simple Call of FoRMaLiTy !!!

An interaction between two.....

Reciever: Good Morning...
Caller: Gooood Morning...



R: How r U....
C: I am fine... Where r U...
R: I am at college, i just came at 9:30... So whats up with U....
C: After i came back last night, i had a long shower, then my friend called me up (its P___ i think), disturbing my sleep, talked to him, went to bed at 1 o clock... i had a disturbed sleep in morning... taps where on... U____ was getting ready to go to office.... i was lying dead on bed all this time and woke up at 10....



R: Good....
C: Hey!!! U know G____ who got hosptialised was operated of appendix...the appendix got bursted... other girls in hostel are going to visit her at hospital.. I am going along with them....



C: Hey!!! whats up with U...
R: Fine... I am preparing for the exam with music on...
C: What r the other guys doing...
R: They r preparing for exams in reading room...


C: How much has N______ has done...
R: He has done 5 chapters and revising them...
C: Good yar...
R: Hmmm...
C: So what r U going to do now...
R: will go and start reading...
C: After coming back from hospital i will also start preparing...


R: So going to have coffee at hospital...
C: hey!! yes... yupee... coffee... do u want to come with me...
R: is everyone coming with u..
C: no we will go alone...
R: O.KK... at what time...
C: hmm.. u don know G___ na... then u don come...
R: ok..
R: come back and read.. don postpone to last moment...
C: ok sir...


C: chalo then...
R: Hey!!! happy valentines day...
C: (smiles) tell this to N_____
R: (smiles) sure...
C: ok then i will keep the phone now...
R: ok... Bye...
C: Byeee...


Hung up...


A formal call to an informal friend...


A call to catch up with latest happening...


A call that i alway seek for....


A call that keeps me alive these days...

Recieve & Transfer...

Caution this post will be boring if not understood properly...

Enjoy reading otherwise...



I wonder what life is all about...

Sometimes i am happy...
Sometimes sad...
Sometimes confused...

When I look into deeply I see that...

My life has two parts..

One part is the Heart - a solution seeker...
The other is Soul - a solution provider (some call it mind)...



Heart is deeply sunk in this materialistic world..
It loves, it hates, it accepts, it rejects and so on...
Heart gets carried away by the wave of life events...



Soul is a silent learner...
It has clear thoughts..
It show up when it is required..
Simply speaking, Soul is the inner self...



My heart has this question...


Why is my life like this?

Hatred...
Sorrow...
Troubles...
Pain..



:)
Soul says...



My Dear Heart...

U want to hold certain things close to ur heart..
U assume that they are urs,But the fact is that they were never urs

U know what my sweet Heart..

U actually own nothing in this life..
Neither a person nor the relation of that person...
Absolutely nothing...
There is no one to cry or laugh for U...
U r just another atom of this universe

All that u do in this life is...

Recieve and Transfer...

U Recieve something that u want....
And u transfer to those who want of what u recieve...

U recieve because U transfer...

But u know what u do...

U Give all that u have to one person...
and U expect to recieve everything that the other person has...

but the other person will take what he/she wants...
and will give what they want to give u...

U might give security, company, love and so on to one person...
but that person will take what that person has not got..
If the person recieves love from some other source...
then ur love is worthless for that person..
only the other things r worthy for that person...

One will take things till it is of worth..
when it is no more worthy, they will take no more and will not give u what they have, anymore...

So my dear Heart...
Give what u have to those who seek for it...
take what others give u without out expectations...
thats the way of life...

I know this hurts..
It is hard to accept..
But U have to...
For U have left with somemore time in this world..
and the world requires U to follow it..

So go with the flow, sweet heart...

For U and U only

My sweetheart complemented today...

She said...

She feels safe and sound...
under the umberla of my tender and love..

She said...

When she sees Sun..
She remembers Soman..

My poor heart feels so rich...
even i can love and care for a person so much..

Darling..
Thank you...
Thank you for filling my heart with love and livelyness...

I still have so much to shower..
its all for U and only U..

Hey about sun and soman..
i will try to be modest about that..

She loves me...

The one most beautiful heart and soul that i have ever seen...
She is my princess of life..
I fall in love with her...

She loves me too...

As a mother who loves her son...
As a Daughter who loves her dad...
As a Friend....
As a Human Being..

She loves me..

My desire to have this love, everlasting...

I want her to be with me..
as my everything for this life time..

O lord..
I cry..
I beg..

I will reach skies..
For if she is a part of my life...