Embrassing Moments!!!

A lot of thoughts running in my mind today...
At the end of the day, embrassing moments dominated my mind...


"Todays moments of embrassment"


Moment 1:

I asked him to get me pasteries (not that i dont spend but just with a right)...
He could have said no...
Instead he just got a box of pasteries for his newly found friends and just left the place...
He dint say even a word...
I felt ashame and mean (i got a cheap look from the server)...
I still went buying it and acting as if nothing happened...
I think my darling noticed that.. she looked into my eyes...
I was trying to hide from her (May be my eyes cant mask as much as my face does)...
She even went on to question me about the incident...
U now how a man would feel for that...


Moment 2:

After coming back to hostel...
The same fellow came to my room...
I was chating with my class mates...
He asked me where was Mr. V...
I said 'i don Know'...
He asked me to inform Mr. V to get ready (now why the F**K are u saying all this to me)...
I asked where r u going...
He said its none of your business (later on i came to know they where going to H2O)...
An insult in front of so many third people...
After all i never asked him to take me along with him...


Do i deserve all that...
Have i become so worthless...
Am i so mean...
Or is that i am not a nice person to be nice with...

People impact one's life so much...

I have ditched people...
and now i am getting ditched...

Friends of mine who always used to hang around with me, is now no where close to me...
Infact they start behaving like i never existed and treat me like a stranger...

I know that i hurt people but i dont insult and embrass like this...

At the end of the day i feel so drained...
though i am strong at mind, i feel weak at heart...
People prick my heart...
A heart that is already hurt...
what joy do they get...
now what shall i do with them...


Is it true...
That Friends stay with u when u r in real need...
That Friends forgive ur mistakes...

What ever at the end of the day i don feel great...
and that is the fact...

In a way its good that i am no more committed to these people...
Nor do i have to really care for them...
Dirty Bastards...