Weak Legs....

Overburdened with thoughts...

Stressed physically and mentally...

Tired to the last cell of my body...



Legs are weak...

Same with the heart...



Oh lord...

Give me strength...

Strength to face...

To face the tomorrow's Ugly and Beautiful World...

With Hope... I Love... My Dear Faith...

An album of thoughts...

These picture captures My Life and Style ....

A collection of pictures from net which i can relate to my current life...

My wants...

Desires...

Moods...

Dreams...

Emotions...

My life...

Almost everything that i am today...

Made Mad of love…

I love to…




Sit next to you…

Looking at your beautiful curves…
Watching your lips speak…
Hearing your sweet voice…
Listening to your childish talks…
And getting more crazy of you…




Walk besides you…

Looking into your eyes…
Holding your hands, Rubbing your shoulders…
Smiling at dirty and naughty talks…
Touching your secret parts here and there a little…
Arouse with joy and happiness inside…
And more…




To have you in my bed…

Seeing the complete of you and me…
Feeling the whole of you with my lips…
Being united with body and soul…
Showing you my love and seeing that in your eyes…
Feeling my manliness deep inside you…

Holding you close to me, as part and parcel of me…
Sensing your heart beat all across my body…
Feeling what you feel…
Listening to you, mourning of pain...

Waking up at dawn to find you in my arms…
Seeing your beautiful body, reflecting sun rays…
And…
Falling more in love with you…




Life without you makes me incomplete…

Here I stand today with the smell of you...
Wishing and asking to make me complete...

Making me complete with u...
My dear janu…

Hating to Love…

I hate…

When I lie to you…

When I act in front of you…

When I cheat you…

When I sin against you…

I do all that…
Just to be with you…

To be with you watching all you do…
To hold you close to my heart…

I hate myself…

To love you like I will never again…

What’s Next???

God!!!

Why did you do this to me…

Getting me so close to her…
And realizing no where close with her…

Showing me my completeness in her…
Yet keeping me incomplete…

Making me shower all my love…
And finding it worthless…

Showing me Heaven…
Just to drop straight down into Hell..

Why???

Is it to show me the difference…
Difference of 'Living Dead and Alive'…

What’s next…

Lost Self !!!

I don knw why...

Not feeling great these days...

Feel very bored...

Feel like i am worthless...

Tired of living with self...

Feel like taking a break n going to a place that is silent and vacum...

A place where i can be with myself...




Living with people is really tough..

U got to hate, love, trust, comfort, forgive, praise, get sick, get angry of some one or other...

Need to recieve all that from the other person as well...

Seems pretty much virtual...




I lose all balance of my life...

Getting into all bull shit habbits...

not feeling great bout it, still carrying it...

what do i do...

I am sick and tired of all this....

One day i am going to blast everything...

Just walk out of the life structure that i have built for myself...



Can i really do this...

Not possible...

For my life values prevent me from doing that...

Whatever...

I will just wait for things to improve...

Till that let me hold on tight...

Sins Of God's Own Country...

Bulls and Buffalos...
Humble creatures sweat their blood to serve humans...
When they cannot sweat anymore their blood is shed...

Loaded to truck, all of them tied together on a jam packed space...

With..
No shelter..
No food..
No water..
Not even place to sit

under sun..
under rain..
days and nights they travel..
without knowing the reason..


They are sold to butchers of my place...


Its hard to see pain and tire in their eyes..
I wish I could help them..

But I just pass by as if I noticed nothing..
I am a gut less person..
Like Coward and timid..
I just passby watching them suffer…

Hard to see how cruel people are..
Calling themselves people of God's own country...
Dirty Bastards…

Blood Suckers…
They not only kill these innocent lives…
They also kill my proud..
And my ego of Belonging to the so called God’s Own Country..

Its Soooo NICE....

Half filled stomach...

Sipping Hot Chai...

Breathing fresh air...

And walking on the Street on cold nights....

After the rain...

When the shops are shut....

Seeing the far end of the road through distant street light...

Watching the beauty of Black roads relfecting lights...



A lonely walk...

Waw!! kya bath hai...